Discontentment.

Ever since I was a child, I always had an inner longing for something more; something better. I don’t get why sometimes, I always have an inner void in me that is never satisfied. I feel so happy at one particular moment, and then suddenly it chains up into another moment of dissatisfaction, discontentment; it irritates and bothers my inner conscience and then re-stirs my longing for answering the why’s, the what’s and more importantly the how’s. It hinders my goal of becoming truly happy, of becoming optimistic and at peace. 

Remembering my Star Wars, Anakin Skywalker was prophesied to have great Force and power, yet Yoda foresaw of what Anakin would become. His inner insatiable hunger for power and thirst for something greater brought him to the dark side of the force and turned him into the Dark Lord of the Sith, Darth Vader. Comparing myself to him.. is a really scary thought. Could it happen? 

I need prayers, enlightenment, help and further happiness. Let’s all just see what happens.